I was leafing through my journal the other day reminiscing of all the changes and transitions I have been through and anticipating the ones yet to come. There have been many milestones in my life and I know it is the same for you. Change is a fact of life. With that change often comes both fear and joy, excitement and uncertainty. These are the times when you just have to trust and take that leap of faith into the unknown. For those of you currently going through a pivotal changing point, this poem is for you.

I see things dying all around me, broken promises are just one more part of an ever growing mountain of change.

The wind whispers hope and potential. My soul yearns to feel more and my heart aches with the fluctuations of the weather.

I am not who people think I am. There are days when I don’t even know myself but to thine own self be true is the key to our salvation.

Who will know I walked the earth yet again? Who will even care? The tides are changing and my anxiety mounting. How can any one soul have such a large calling and yet feel so insignificant?

I yearn to be found but by who or what I do not know. Only time will tell. Change is in the air. My heart softens to the whispers of time.

The ground beneath me shakes. My heart beats faster and my mind races in both fear and joy. Will I take the leap and is it the leap I want? Or even know?

My realities are starting to blur. So too are my thoughts and intentions. Is there any right way to jump? Is there a safety net to catch me?

My wings are strong, my will mighty. My eyes are open, but faith is blind. Someday I will see the glory. For now I rely on feeling.

If ever there was a time to surrender, this is it. For I know not where I am headed or how I will get there. 

I only know the beating of my heart…A heart that says jump. You are safe in the arms of the almighty. 

Amen.

Namaste,

Lauren Heistad