I have both heard and used the term, “stand in your power” for many years. I have also worked far too long to achieve this state of mind and yet still struggle to fully embrace my life experiences and teachings with absolute confidence. No matter how much inner work I have done or outer help I have received, to this day I feel just as insecure as I have ever been, perhaps even more so depending on the day. Granted, I may not be insecure in the same areas of my life as I have been in the past, for I have certainly grown and learned from my life experiences. However, overall my demeanor of insecurities and a huge lack of self confidence still exists.
I have always taken my insecurities to heart and until recently considered this trait to be a downfall of mine. I always wondered how it was I could teach, give guidance, and move forward with my life path with all my insecurities still in tact? In truth, I have learned to not perceive my insecurities as a weakness, but in fact a strength. Yup, I really did just say that.
Defining the term more clearly, being insecure actually means someone who is self-conscious, unassertive, humble, shy, timid, unsure, and not always firm or set in their ways. To be honest, I actually value these traits in both myself and all others, and often prefer them to those who are oozing with self confidence and certainty. Not that I don’t value a confident person, but I do see the value in someone who leaves room for more growth and awareness to present itself.
At one point, humanity was very confident the earth was flat. Other times, people have been adamantly secure in their knowing that life after death was non existent. For centuries, people have even been preaching and demonstrating their unwavering faith that they know exactly what will transpire during these prophesied times. To those confident people I simply ask, are you so sure you know all the answers? Are you confident that your soul has already encountered all there is to experience? Is there validity in your security of thinking the current teachings are all factual and real? Does your confidence account for humanities evolution and the potential for the unknown? Do you truly stand in your power or have you yet to even fully understand how much power and potential there is to stand in?
There is literally only one thing I am completely secure and confident in… the knowing that there are many unknowns yet to be discovered, understandings yet to surface, and divine potential yet to be tapped into. In fact, it is pretty damn exciting to be open to the possibilities, realities, and awareness of discoveries yet to come.
Do yourself a favor and stop beating yourself up over your lack of confidence or your abundance of insecurities. Perhaps it is time to recognize and embrace those perceived weaknesses, as the true strengths that they are. When properly understood, insecurities are not what keeps one from moving forward, they are the fabric of life which propel us to create new pathways of awareness and understandings. Confidence is overrated…the meek will truly inherit the earth by delving into the depths of our still very unknown and ever expandable soul potential.
Namaste,
Lauren Heistad