I have been experiencing the most bizarre and energy depleting grieving process for longer than I care to admit. It has been ongoing for quite a few years now, but if I am to be brutally honest, my undeniable inner sorrow amped up shortly after I published my third book. I believe the entire world is going through a similar grieving process regardless of whether we are all consciously aware of the reasons behind this overwhelming sadness or not. But perhaps I can shed some light on the situation.

It is actually a very hard, courageous, and emotionally exhausting process to officially let go of the old story. In particular, I am talking about the belief systems and expectations of generations past that have filtered through our ancestral linage and even our own past incarnations, waiting for this very moment in time. Contained within the old story are specific interpretations and understandings pertaining to how we will eventually transcend into a new era of enlightenment. Opposing this exact evolution however, and securely ingrained within our cellular memory and historical mindsets, resides a very tough and inaccurate narrative of inherent unworthiness that we must officially ascend beyond. Many of us talk about letting go. Most of us even understand what parts of the old story need to be released. However, most have yet to fully surrender to or give ourselves full permission and the freedom to completely let go of the past interpretations and move forward. Even when the realization and higher truth of our collective existence remains securely embedded within the subconscious shadows of our own inner knowing patiently waiting to arise, many still struggle through the process of self empowerment. This creates a tidal wave of emotional reactions and a roller coaster of self doubt and confidence as we stumble through the changes of finding faith in our individual divine light held within. Admittedly, many of us still cling to the sides of an old, outdated sinking ship, secretly hoping a rescue and miraculous intervention are still on the way.

Even for myself who grew up consciously aware that we each hold the individual power and responsibility for our own life path, there is still very much a part of my soul that hopes and prays for a much larger divine unfoldment, savior type moment to arrive. And whether that is interpreted as an abundance in all things, financial freedom, golden pearly gates, or the end of our personal and global sorrows, the majority of society still places and seeks that resolve from outside of our own inner being.

As much as I value and trust in the divine and the divine timing of all things, at some point we must each accept and have the courage to know that the gold we seek has always been anchored within us all along. Much like a pair of ruby slippers transporting Dorothy back home to Kansas, the ancient symbol of an ark is symbolic of our individual yet cosmic rainbow of colours very much accessible within our unique and ever expanding SOULworks quite capable of taking us back home to the divine held within. Making the true covenant an authentic promise that someday, we as a society will collectively rise to the occasion, step into the shoes of our very individual and global soul potential, and access the divine power held from within.

Most days however, we are still watching and waiting for an ark to arrive outside of ourselves. In fact, we are truly afraid to fully let go of the old story just in case elements of the original interpretations are genuinely true. A mystical being that will somehow lift us up, chart a new course towards the promised land, and single-handedly remove all the pain, trauma, and emotional baggage that comes with being human. Just like how Noah’s Ark provided a reprieve from the tidal waves of change, we instinctually cling to our survival mode never fully letting go of the hope or promise of being rescued by someone or something outside of ourselves.

Undoubtedly, there are some yelling at me right now, insisting the historical events of Noah’s Ark did in fact take place. That a select and chosen few miraculously survived a global upheaval by the grace of God, for providing one man the intuitive insight, divine appointment, tenacity, and faith to build an ark. And in fact, insist this same process will repeat itself once again, during a second coming savior type scenario with perhaps the arrival of one heavenly sent being and a huge ass lifeboat for all those deemed worthy. It is a great story, don’t get me wrong. And I do understand many genuine biblical and historical events did in fact take place. I also do love the promise of hope and better things yet to come. However, one must question what would have happened back in the day when perhaps more people than just Noah intuitively knew it was time to build their own ark. Likewise, if communities in that same era of time would have worked together forging a solution towards the climate changes at hand, imagine the manifesting potential that could and would have endured.

Bringing this concept into the present day, imagine what will happen when society fully accepts the very real notion that every being on and off this planet has the divine capacity to hear, see, and intuitively rebuild their own ark of self empowerment and accountability. That beautiful kaleidoscope of energetic source potential housed from within. More astounding, imagine what will happen when society no longer fears this co-creative mindset or the power we individually and collectively wield to create such positive change on a global scale.

How do we get there? Well, first we must bravely step away from the promise of being saved by anything beyond our own soul development, as well as release all past teachings and interpretations regarding this time. Not to belittle our history or the shared understandings of our past, but to embrace all other possibilities of what can and will be collectively accomplished when we recognize and believe in the inherent potential of all people. It takes great courage and intuitive strength to believe in our nature, reframe understandings of the past, and bravely step away from a sinking ship of false expectations that would ever place the entire survival of humanity on one individual.

And I don’t mean to be too blunt or patronizing here, but if I can be brave enough to put myself out there, send out an energetic life raft through my books, and face this metamorphosis of change on nothing beyond sheer faith and trust in better things yet to come, then please find the inner courage to face your own fears, at minimum be open to hearing my accounts and version of the story, and do your own soul works required to integrate the higher truths held within. Don’t even take my word for it. Find your own understandings and processes but do test the energetic theories in my teachings and double check the references I have sited. Personally, I have checked off more boxes regarding prophecy fulfillment then even I can fully comprehend and assuredly more then some may ever be willing to see, hear, or accept. However, society’s acknowledgement of my life path is not my concern. I am not here to build an ark of transformation all on my own. I am simply heralding the significance of this time and reminding society that this is our collective calling and divine appointment in time. We must reshape the old story into new beginnings of infinite potential from this point forward. Learn to truly experience and understand our energetic connection to all things and more importantly, our global accountability towards change. And when we are ready, no matter how long that grieving process may take, how long individuals choose to deny the higher truth, or how many years may be required for society to fully embody the words I have written (myself included), I will still be here in some way, shape, or form. Patiently waiting on the sidelines for the rest of the timeline to play out, still lending a helping hand when needed, and more importantly celebrating this incredible milestone moment that we have already embarked on together.

In the meantime, I have decided to create a podcast to start slowly putting my story out into the world, chapter by chapter as I am ready. And even though I feel I have been touting my particular story for literally ever, I will continue to say it again and again. Not because I am sharing my life experiences to appease my ego nor for others to value my worth. I am not clinging to old belief systems or struggling with concepts or expectations I have yet to let go of or heal. On the contrary. I am telling my story so that perhaps at some point in the not-too-distant future, society will finally hear and see the higher truth; authentically and fully appreciate our collective obligation to face change, and fully embody our ever-expanding soul potential.

And if I am being completely honest, I guess it is also my own personal way of attempting to reach out and humbly thank you so very much for believing in whatever version of my SOULworks that has existed within the archives of our collective history. However, I am officially beginning to speak up, set the record straight, change the narrative, and help myself and all others learn how to fully embody and believe in ourselves and all others. It is time.

Love and Blessings,

Lauren Heistad

Podcast series of the SOULworks trilogy: https://soulworks.pro/podcast.html

Angel artwork credit to my mom. Thank you for always being there for me regardless of how crazy my views and experiences may seem. Much love.