The countdown of Personal and Global Transformation continues with my second biggest fear, insecurity, thought process, and limiting belief system in need of a serious upgrade and purging, so that I can finally hit print on my third book bringing closure and new beginnings for myself and all others. (Big breath and a small drum roll here, please)…
Limiting Fear and Belief #2– I MUST WAIT FOR OUTSIDE EVENTS, FACTORS, PEOPLE OR SITUATIONS TO LINEUP BEFORE PROCEEDING
As many of you may or may not know, the last 9 years of my life has been following a very specific timeline. Try as I might to alter the direction of my own SOULworks, my life path continues to unfold in accordance with scriptures and prophecy, which does seem to be lingering on and on, by the way. So why the ongoing delay in my own personal and our global unfoldment and will there ever be an end to this madness? Because, just to be clear, I do feel that hitting print on my third book will officially liberate myself from this burden and provide the freedom needed to start moving forward. However, the issue is that I have always held visions of specific events unfolding right around the release of my third book. Stars that would eventually align and external events that would somehow prove that I am who I say I am, demonstrate that I am ready to accept my own truth, and/or further confirm my own unique and individual SOULworks.
I’ve been thinking about this ridiculous thought process a lot lately. Yes, I did see visions of what would be happening in my life at this specific point in time. And yes, my life has been following a very specific timeline and a precise set of visions for many years now, relentlessly haunting my mind and soul. However, the when, where, and how I choose to move my life path forward has nothing to do with external events, expectations, or the life path of any other soul on or off this planet being either ready or willing to accept my own unique adventure. In fact, I have accomplished and lived out what I have over the course of my life, by moving beyond the expectations, actions, and opinions of all others, and instead by simply living my life. Not by waiting on someone else to confirm or tell me I am okay and worthy enough to be a living breathing co-creator in this world. Instead, I have arrived at this very moment in time by allowing myself the right to live my life fully and authentically, with or without anyone else’s approval or opinions getting in the way.
Lately, I feel like I am not doing that anymore. Living my authentic life that is. Instead, I feel like I am in a holding pattern, waiting for myself and all others to be ready, pausing for a few more events to play out, and secretly wishing for any other outcome or further confirmation before proceeding. Perhaps even expecting a divine intervention or for the sky to break open with angelic forces daring myself and the world to embrace and create a new reality. Sure, it sounds silly now that I really think about it. In fact, I have spent my entire career insisting that no one can define who we are, and yet here I am waiting for events and situations to unfold specifically so that I can finally confirm and further define what I already know. The wonderful part about being an individual aspect of source potential, is that no one can ever define who we are unless we let them. Waiting for events and scenarios in our lives to perfectly line up, aiming for external validations before proceeding, or pausing until we feel completely ready and sure-footed to move forward is not only unnecessary, but technically both physically and mentally exhausting. If there is one thing I have learned over the many years of personal transformation, it is that we never seem to feel completely ready for change. However, at some point, we must decide that it is officially time and give ourselves full permission to move forward into the next chapter of our lives even with all those endless fears, judgements, and insecurities still in tow.
I’d like to say there is a foreseeable end to my fears and limiting thought processes. In truth, I could potentially write about my plethora of insecurities indefinitely. I’d also like to say I have my own personal life and ambitions perfectly sorted out and in place, ready to proceed. However, I don’t believe I will ever feel that confident or ready to dive in without a little insecurity still vying for my attention below the surface. I’d even love to convince myself and all others that I am delaying the inevitable so that I can catch my breath or take some well-deserved me time for awhile. In truth, I feel I have been on this perpetual pause mode waiting for this very moment in my life to unfold for practically ever. And in all honesty, I am officially way more tired of the delays and personal exhaustion felt by staying within this purgatory limbo, then I am technically still scared of the unknown or potential fallout from moving forward. Which makes one thing perfectly clear, it is time to stop delaying the inevitable, wrap this prophecy up, seal my destiny, and move on with my life no matter what the outcome, big or small. I’ve been held captive in this old story for far too long, 490 weeks within this specific lifetime to be exact, making it way more than enough time to officially mark the end of this chapter in my life and the beginning of new adventures yet to come. As for my own limiting fears and beliefs continuing to hold me hostage, making me feel as though I must wait for outside events, factors, people, or situations to either lineup or confirm my life path before proceeding – with all due respect, screw that. I plan to be the captain of my own ship and authentically chart the course of my own SOULworks, regardless of who else is ready for that ship to set sail. Besides, I prefer to make my own destiny while reaching for the stars. And with that, I have an official announcement to make:
**** Mastering your SOULworks release date: April 12, 2022 ****
Limiting Fear and Belief #3 – I don’t think so. My second declaration is all I have coming 😉
p.s. My wish for myself and all others is to move forward with divine blessings and grace.
Acknowledgements: Wishing Star featured in the photo is the magnificent art creation of Loris Dawn Designs http://www.wishingstars.ca