A little backgrounder before I begin my official blog post of the New Year. In 2012, I wrote my first book Activating your SOULworks which I eventually found the courage to self-publish a whole whopping two years later. Essentially it is a book about my life and how I worked through my earlier years of personal confusion and transformation towards connecting to spirit, energy healing, and navigating all those voices within my conscious awareness. In 2017, I published my second book Evolving your SOULworks. It is a personal account of both remembering and stepping more fully into my life path. Full disclosure, I am still working on that.
Last year, I finished the content of my third book, Mastering your SOULworks which involves rising above my own personal insecurities and judgements about my life path so I can be a clear channel of my own understandings, teachings, and the fulfillment of my ultimate message. Well, if I am being completely honest here, it is well beyond my own insecurities and judgements I am trying to navigate. It is the thoughts, expectations, and opinions of all others geared towards me that I am also working to overcome. My third book is ready. I am not. However, I am presently and whole heartedly working to transform my current mindset until I do feel ready. I have officially taken time off all sessions and teachings and have perhaps prematurely vowed to myself and all others that the next written word to leave my desk will be the final book of my SOULworks trilogy. Admittedly, if I need to move beyond all judgements before I feel comfortable enough to hit print, that might take a while. I’ve given that reality some serious thought lately.
I believe that individually we still have much inner work to accomplish to help facilitate the global transformation currently underway. I am actually knee deep in the middle of my own personal transformation which I have decided to write about publicly. Quite personal actually, because I am working through the last of my biggest fears, insecurities, thought processes, and limiting belief systems that need a serious upgrade and purging before I can move forward. Technically, the entire world needs to do the very same, so I figure why not walk this final leg of our collective transformation together. Besides, the truth is I receive clarity and understanding through my own writing process.
My concept is to embrace this transformation as I’ve always done: one step at a time, one month at a time, one limiting fear and belief at a time. A personal advent calendar of sorts, where I identify, surpass, and count down to the official moment when I finally and fully show up for myself. Each month I will write a blog aimed at working through my own insecurities. The purpose: learn to surpass my self-inflicted judgements so that I can finally move forward with my life path. I’ll even start with my biggest, scariest and most monster type fears until I work my way down to only one – the fear that I literally have no more fears holding me back. I encourage you to do the same. You do your personal transformation, I’ll do mine, and together we will rock this global, generational leap of collective awareness beyond the current vibration. Here we go.
The countdown begins with the largest of my biggest fears, insecurities, thought processes, and limiting belief systems that are in need of a serious upgrade and purging:
Limiting Fear and Belief #1– I AM THE ANTI-CHRIST
Yup. There it is. Perhaps one of the largest fears holding me back ever is the original prophecy, concepts, and understandings around the term and expected arrival of THE Anti-Christ. I mean really, who wants to be that guy?! I wouldn’t wish that label on my worst enemy let alone want that role for myself. But there it is, a very specific role I am technically afraid of and still in waiting for.
Obviously, I need to take this fear and obliterate it once and for all. I have wasted way too much of my lifetime worrying about the anticipated arrival of this very moment. I have admittedly given far too much power to this concept and/or person. And truthfully have literally avoided this antagonistic climax for way too long. It is time to face this fear and shift my perspective once and for all.
I assume we all know the basic concepts around the original texts, but just as a quick refresher here and breaking it down by definition from biblical text, the term Anti-Christ is defined as… wait a minute, what the f@*&??!! You mean to tell me original biblical texts regarding an actual individual filling the role of Anti-Christ doesn’t really exist beyond the interpretation of there being many false prophets. Seriously, wtf? Where the hell was the fact checking Wikipedia standards thousands of years ago when this crap originally began to surface?!
Okay, new angle. Let me tackle my fear from another perspective by identifying and overcoming my own definition of Anti-Christ, one point at a time. My original understanding and limiting belief of the term Anti-Christ identifies a person in opposition of the traditional Jesus story, who is expected to appear before the end of times, during an apocalyptic type scenario, and lead the world away from traditional teachings and understandings.
Breaking it down further…
- A person in opposition of the traditional Jesus story (check). Well, if we want to get technical, I do fill that personal definition quite openly and regularly actually. Right from the beginning of my SOULworks I have been a strong proponent to no one individual person being designated to save the world. I strongly advise and suggest there being significant untapped soul potential within us all. And let’s not forget (try as I may), I do believe I have been living prophecy right here and now in this current lifetime, not from days gone by.
- Someone who is expected to appear before the end of times (check). Well, as I’ve said before, you would have to be living under a rock to not understand we are within transformational times with a clear ending to old beliefs, understandings, and perspectives while new beginnings of higher-level consciousness rise to the surface. In fact, I have been talking about this very shift in perspective for many years. And of course, the more obvious reality is that I am not the only one who has recognized this time as the end of an old era and the beginning of a new one. In fact, by now most truth seekers, mystics, and open-hearted folks know this to be true. Hell, even the most closed-minded of souls are very much aware and acknowledge that something is going down.
- Someone who arrives during an apocalyptic type scenario (check). I mean really, how much more do we need then our current world upheavals, pandemics, floods, fires, famine, and battles of supremacy to recognize the crumbling of the old ways are making way for the new.
- Someone who leads the world away from traditional teachings and understandings (double check). To be honest I live and breath to help lead the world away from traditional teachings and may in fact loathe original doctrines entirely. Okay, not entirely. I actually respect some of the original, unedited texts, but I do most certainly see magnitudes of room for improvement. In fact, demonstrating those wider, bigger picture perspectives is the entirety and culmination of my SOULworks.
Ironically when I stare down my biggest fear and face it head on, I am left with full clarity (while more obviously a full slate of checked boxes to my own definition). I am not afraid of my original version of the Anti-Christ, I embody it – proudly actually. I no longer place value on a perspective within outdated texts and mindsets, I surpass it. In truth, I have been awaiting the arrival of this very moment in time my entire life. I openly, unapologetically, and with absolute certainty fulfill my own original definition and role of THE Anti-Christ. In fact, when I really take the time to think about it, I am no longer afraid of who I am becoming or how the world will perceive me. To be honest, I am more afraid to remain in the shadows without having the courage to step forward, oppose the traditional Jesus story, acknowledge the end of an outdated era, welcome the beginning of higher consciousness, and help lead the world towards our individual and collective potential.
Limiting Fear and Belief #2 (to be continued)